by Steph Shao
Radiohead's "In Rainbows" marked a huge transition in my life when I started listening to it in high school. I was going through some falling outs with most of my friends and didn't feel safe in my school environment for a few reasons. Some people close to me were abusive towards me from a young age and sometimes after these periods I would listen to this album and cry as quietly as I could in bed until I fell asleep early in the morning. I loved the quiet projection of each song into the next and the ways they swelled and diminished to match what felt like the frequency of pain, sadness, maybe euphoric joy, quiet contemplation. The album still makes my mind and heart race every time I listen to it. My body nervously sweats when I listen to the full thing or when I hear one of the songs. I love the way it can transport me back in time, and how it feels like an ultimate expression from the very inner most parts of the purest form I could hope to be.